I am backkkk!
Yes, I know I have taken a break from blogging. Why? Well, there are lots of reason…1) the work I get paid for is my priority 2) I have a lot less time than I used to and 3) it just became such a chore. Every time, I would think about blogging, a wave of resentment would come over me. From the beginning, this blog was a hobby…I always wanted it to be something fun, and when it stopped being fun, I had to take a break. I knew at some point my inspiration would come back.
And magically, this morning I woke up with a lot to say. I just wanted to sit down and get it all off my mind. This hasn’t happened in a while, so I am just going with it.
A lot has changed in my life. Let’s start with the biggest change: I AM ENGAGED. Yes, someone actually wants to spend the rest of their life with me. Let’s call this lucky guy, “M”…I know I am so creative right, but not everyone wants all their info on the Internet.
I am not going to get too sentimental here, but I feel like wonderful things happen when you open yourself up. Start saying yes more than you say no. The beginning of our relationship wasn’t filled with what fairy tales are made of. Like any modern love story, we met online, and the first date was lackluster. Never in a million years would I have guessed that on one faithful night at the beginning of March at a mediocre Tex Mex chain restaurant, I was meeting the person I would spend the rest of my life with. That is the thing about life…little insignificant moments can become life-changing, but you have to keep putting yourself in situations to have those moments.
Then, for the next few months, ”M” and I would hang out every so often. Till again, a series of insignificant moments made me realize what we had was very significant. It is definitely funny the way that life works.
It is inevitable, but your professional life is bound to change as your personal life changes, especially when you work for yourself. I don’t know what else to say except my view of the world has shifted. These might not be true for everyone, but these are some things I have realized:
Success cannot be defined by a monetary amount.
I think I have mentioned this before, but I used to think being a millionaire would make me successful. Wrong. I still like making money, and buying nice things for myself…but that isn’t the only thing that makes me happy. For me, to feel successful, I have to constantly be nurturing all the different parts of my life that make me happy. Work is only one part of the total pie that is my life.
Priorities shift.
Depending on the day, month, or year, what is important to you might change. That is okay; just be aware of it. Work will always be a priority to me, but there times when other things give me more fulfillment. Instead of beating myself up over, I try to just go with the flow. This blog is a perfect example. I tried to take a break when it became a chore because there is no use in being miserable.
Happiness is a choice.
Cliché,..maybe? As you get older, I feel like it becomes more apparent that the people that are happy decide that they are going to be. Every day you have the decision to focus on the good or you can focus on the bad. I want to live a happy life; I would say this is my number one goal. I know it probably sounds stupid, but when I start to feel upset about something…I try my hardest to focus on all of the amazing things I am grateful for. This usually makes my brain switch focus.
I don’t know is an acceptable answer.
Maybe it is because I am old and wise now, but I am starting to embrace the uncertainty of life. I used to think I always had to know exactly what was going to happen at all times. Okay, and don’t get me wrong I still have those freak out moments (more often than I would like). However, the phrase “I don’t know” has become my new favorite expression.
When are you getting married? I don’t know. What are you doing with Glamtrepreneur? I don’t know. Why don’t you write in your blog anymore? I don’t know. You get the picture. I feel like everything is an on-going journey, so it is okay to not know where you are going. I just like to keep moving forward in a direction I would like to be going in.
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